Protection...

It's really been over two months since I posted... I'm ashamed. Things have been insane lately and I just felt like to much going on that I should take some time out and get some things in order. Well... I'm back and at the moment feeling very very sore and mentally exhausted.

The new year started out going well.... I brought it in sitting on Siesta Key beach in the arms of my better half. Fireworks going off all around. Sweet and romantic. I set some goals... not resolutions.. goals.

Things were going well when I went back to work. I was blessed to receive a nice Christmas bonus.. and then go onto salary with a raise. God has been so faithful to me. Things were going well. It was hard getting the kids back into routine and I still feel like they aren't quite there completely. Yesterday was mentally draining with the kids... and I was frustrated. Today started off MUCH better and ended up much much worse. The day went normal... through the routine... I left in their van with the 3 yr old girl to pick up the two boys from school. There is a really bad intersection and I have to turn left there. Well the sun was shining in  my eyes making it really hard for me to see... I didn't see anything started going and BANG! Before I knew what happened we were stopped... airbags out... dust flying. Worst feeling in my life and it was NOT MY CAR! My little girl instantly started crying and someone was right there at my door asking me if I'm ok. I answered yes and proceeded to get out making sure I felt ok... and unbuckeled my girl. She stopped crying as soon as she was in my arms. THANK GOD cause I was trying soooo hard to be calm. The police officer was there right away asking me questions. I called my boss right away. See this all took place while his wife was IN LABOR! What yeah that would happen.

Thankfully everyone was ok. The van we think is totalled. [insert baaaaaaaad feeling here] UGH! Totally not what I wanted to ever ever do. He took it really well and told me its a van... we are glad that everyone is ok. I hope she takes it well. Her dad came over to watch the kids so he could go back to the hospital and he was SUPER nice asking me several times if I'm doing ok and checking on me. Got in my car to go home... called my better half and bawled my eyes out. He is so amazing and was there for me as much as he could be. I felt a lot better got home.. cried again... my parents both hugged me and told me that everything will be ok... My adorable little niece asked me why I'm crying and where my ouchie is. Such a sweetie.

Bleh so that was my day. Not what I had in mind at ALL! Feeling the effects of being in an accident now... and pretty sure it's only to get worse. So I'm told anyway.

So now... my friend is taking me out to eat and for ice cream... Just what I needed some downtime to get my mind off of things. Hopefully no nightmares.

Thank you Jesus for protection!

But let all who take refuge in you be glad; let them ever sing for joy. Spread your protection over them, that those who love your name may rejoice in you.  - Psalm 5:10-12

Props to Amelia Bedelia for putting these verses on for me today. I needed them. :)